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Lame of me.

foooooor meeee.


Teehee!

I feel as though some major change is coming.

I can't really put a name to it, or describe what it will be. There are the obvious ones - I'm graduating high school in May; I'm turning 17 this October; I'm going to college next fall. But no...it's something more subtle. Something more undefinable. I feel as though a change is coming in the way I relate to people. I feel as though a change is coming in my relationships...especially my closest friendships.

Thinking about it makes me a little nervous. I'm a pessimist at heart - I just play the part of the optimist well.

It's not as though I dislike change. More often than not, I embrace it. And I do believe that everything happens for a reason. I'm sure whatever is coming (if anything is -- I've been wrong before) will end up creating positive repercussions in my life.

But honestly? I can't help but feel like whatever is coming is going to be something bad. Maybe I'm just so used to being depressed in the winter (something I'm striving to avoid this year, with some bumps) I'm looking for reasons to justify it. But I feel like I'm drifting. From someone incredibly important to me. And...it sucks a little. Everything happens for a reason, and...if it's meant to happen, it's meant to. But that doesn't mean I have to be happy about it, does it?

Eh, I don't even know what I'm saying anymore.

Later.